I wondered what I could do that would have any hope of making a difference. I nodded, too, and we started toward the big house. “When you put it that way… I suppose we should get to work as soon as we can.” He swallowed convulsively, and the door shuddered, hinges protesting, as his hand tightened.
“Would you leave me unable to defend myself?” “If it comes to a fight, there won’t be much any of us can do,” he hedged. His eyes lingered on our daughter sleeping in my arms. He froze, and then his eyes swept over me with a deep significance, like he was looking at me for the first or last time.
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“Edward, will you teach me how to fight?” I asked him, tensed for his reaction, as he held the door for me. If all went well with Tanya’s family, hopefully we would have company for an extended period. There were answers I needed, and wasn’t sure how much time Edward and I would have alone today. I couldn’t waste one second of time today. I pulled Renesmee, still sleeping, from her bed and held her close so that her curls were pressed against my face her sweet scent, so close, overpowered every other smell. “But he wouldn’t understand the question to answer it,” I agreed. “I wish there was a way to get the information we need from Eleazar before we tell them about Nessie,” Edward muttered as we hurriedly dressed in the huge closet that was more reminder of Alice than I wanted at the moment.
As soon as I let myself think of what was coming, I was all tension it felt like my nerves were being stretched on a rack, thinner and thinner. It was hard to pull myself away from him when the sun came up, but we had our job to do, a job that might be more difficult than all the rest of our family’s searches put together. All I wanted was to love him as much as possible in the limited time given to me. For the moment I couldn’t help but be selfish. If we had only a month left together… Well, I didn’t see how I could stand to have this end. And then centuries after that to enjoy it. I’d been planning on needing years just to somewhat organize the overwhelming passion I felt for him physically.
It didn’t take long for me to grasp the reason for his mood, and even less time to feel exactly the same way. I didn’t think of my questions again for the rest of that night. I only had time to register the ferocious expression on his face before his lips were crushing against mine and his arms were locked around me like steel girders. He spun and was across the room in what seemed like no time at all, not even the smallest part of a second. He stood with his back to me, staring into the fire. The ones I was able to ask, at any rate one of the most difficult of problems was the idea of trying to hide anything from him, even with the advantage of my silent thoughts. He ran in the woods, on guard again.Īfter she was deeply under, I put Renesmee in her bed and then went to the front room to ask my questions of Edward.
I wished that I could feel the same, could feel ready. Jacob was more comfortable in his wolf form at the moment the stress was easier dealt with when he felt ready for a fight. Wanting some normality for Renesmee, I’d insisted on taking her home to our cottage at bedtime. So many answers I needed, but I did not get the chance to ask my questions. How was I going to learn in just a month? Was there any chance at all that I could be taught fast enough that I might be a danger to any one member of the Volturi? Or was I doomed to be totally useless? Just another easily dispatched newborn? How were Edward and I going to explain things to Tanya’s family in the morning? What if they reacted like Irina? What if it turned into a fight? If Alice’s clue had nothing to do with Renesmee, what could I do to save my daughter? Jenks, and why did Alice want me to know about him? How was I going to find time alone to hunt down J.